Better than Counting Sheep

Sometimes, when I can't fall asleep at night, I like to picture all previous ex-boyfriends and hookups in the same room together.  Like they were sent some mysterious message by a higher power to show up at that exact place and time without further explanation.  Refreshments would be served, and they'd kind of mill about the room sizing one another up, and making small talk.  It's not really a fantasy, more like an amusement.

My best friend, John, would figure it out first.  Yes.  My current guy best friend and I dated briefly (I count him as a half-relationship since it was half-hearted on both our parts).  But he's seen me through many a break-up, received many a tearful phone call, and listened to more than his share of "you'll never believe where I ended up this weekend" stories.  He knows what's what.  

After an improv show last week, while getting drinks at a nearby bar, this little vision just about came true.  At least for the gentlemen I've been involved with in some capacity in the last few months.  Silly facebook invites.  They all decided to come.  Paul lives in another city, and happened to be in town for work.  Nathan actually got off work early from his big brainy-sciencey job to come.  John was in the show with me (though, let's be clear, we've been just-friends for a good two years now).  Logan may or may not be interested - that's up for debate.  But he definitely wants to be friends, and seems interested in hanging out, at the very least.  And Peter, who may or may not actually like me, but everyone TELLS me he likes me (do I sound thirteen yet?) was ALSO there.  

John pretty much stood back with our other good friend from college and LAUGHED at me, as the scene unfolded.  Don't get me wrong, I am a WHORE for attention, and try very hard to draw the line there.  But this was a little bit beyond my control.  To be fair, and somewhat modest - things with Paul and I are over, and we're just friends now.  I hope.  Things with Nathan are kind of sporadic.  He works a lot, and I've been out of town a lot.  

Actually, Nathan and Logan became VERY good friends.  They actually exchanged numbers... which I thought was a little bit adorable, but then complicated things.  Like in case I  maybe start to like Logan a little bit better than Nathan.  But Nathan is british.  See how hard this is?  

Ideally, when juggling boys, they start out as strangers, and they STAY strangers.  Stupid improv, and stupid facebook.  I didn't expect them all to show up in the same place!  Shame on me... 

Cheers,

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